If you want to give up

I’m Hollie, I'm 17, and I wanted to share one of the songs I’ve written about my current experiences, feelings, thoughts and recovery. I’ve written quite a few songs, I find it really helps me express how I’m truly feeling - my therapist says I will have a whole album by the time I’m recovered! I struggle with, and am currently getting treatment for, anxiety, depression and a restrictive eating disorder. These illnesses have really impacted my life, to the point where I didn’t want to carry on. I got sent to hospital twice and ended up having to stay overnight both times. But I pushed through and am still fighting every single day – some days are more successful than others, but that’s ok, recovery isn’t linear! It’s hard but it is worth it. I am definitely not recovered yet but I’m so glad I am still here, there are so many things in life to be thankful for, but sometimes it’s hard to see the good when you feel so bad.

I hope this will help others know they aren’t alone in their struggles and that it does get better, sometimes it just takes a bit of time and hard work. Maybe it will inspire you to write something of your own!

Never give up, always keep fighting for yourself and your own happiness, everyone deserves to be happy 😊

Hollie x

If you wanna give up

What should you do when you feel like you're losing,

What should you do when you've caused a commotion

What should you do when you feel so small,

What should you do when you hate at all

I don't even recognise me,

I don't even love or like me

I don't know if I can do this much longer,

I don't know if I can keep moving forward

If you wanna give up just remember in the end,

You gonna get happy and enjoy life again

If you wanna give up just remember in the end,

You gonna get happy and enjoy life again

I can't live this life for much longer,

I can't live this life I wish it was shorter

I feel like lightning’s gonna strike me,

I can't keep on going and keep on fighting

I don't even recognise me,

I don't even love or like me

I don't know if I can do this much longer,

I don't know if I can keep moving forward

If you wanna give up just remember in the end,

You’re gonna get happy and enjoy life again

If you wanna give up just remember in the end,

You’re gonna get happy and enjoy life again

Try to remember why you wanna get better

Think about the things that you could do

There are so many things that life can give you

But you only see that when you push through

I know it's hard it feels impossible

But if you set your mind to it anything is possible

You can do this

You can get through this

You can get the life back that you miss

You can do this

You can get through this

You can get the life back that you miss so

If you wanna give up just remember in the end

You’re gonna get happy and enjoy life again

Don't ever give up I know that in the end

You will be happy and enjoy life again